Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Choices

The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. 
I am glad that when I asked my students (11-13 yrs old) to rate what they feel indicates success, most of them chose being happy and enjoying life at the top of their list, and placed making money at the bottom. Idealists? Yeah. Randall says they are young. They don't know yet. But I feel that they've got it right. Their young not-quite-adults-yet minds got it right. Well, as long as you have enough money that you can feel happy. 

From the beginning of my job, I've been contemplating quitting. Why? Because this job has turned me into a teacher I do not like, and I find my self thinking that if this is what being a kindergarten teacher is like, I don't want to be a kindergarten teacher anymore. I keep thinking of the opportunities that I did not take. Julia Gabriel, Waldorf, TweedleWink Playschool, Montessori... And I keep trying to convince myself to stay. For the sake of the children. And then another offer comes and it definitely would be better for me, but would it be selfish and irresponsible for me to quit? How much impact would my quitting be for my students? Will they find it easy to adjust to a new teacher? I don't know what to do now...

Thursday, February 28, 2013

It's Official Now!!

It's not that he suddenly "popped the question"
We have been talking about it for a long looong time. I can't remember when we first talked about it. He proposed to me when we were out dating. In the car. At the park. After movies. Grabbing a bite after classes. At the pasar malam. While window shopping. It has never been about whether I will marry him or not. The answer has always been yes. It's just about when we will get married. :) I can't wait to start this new chapter of my life!!! He is the One I want to spend my life with. Grow old with. Wake up to. Come home to.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

The Cookies which became Muffins

I have always baked the same chocolate chip cookies. So, this year when I saw this awesome recipe for Nutella chocolate cookies, I wanted to try them. Only I forgot the Golden Rule of baking for amateurs like myself: ALWAYS FOLLOW THE RECIPE.

I was kinda sorta embarrassed by this stupid mistake, but oh well, this is a lesson I won't be forgetting haha.

The dough
It could have been the cake flour, or the Nutella, or the brown butter, but honestly, I don't know what actually made it go all wrong. The cookies just melted on the tray into one huge flat blob within minutes of being in the oven.

The scraped off stuff from the pan.
I started adding more flour and still it melted, but tasted ok. So I put them in muffin trays.





Thats how my cookies became muffins. 

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

My 2012

I turned 21.
I made my first passport.
Road trips
- March: Malacca with youths
- May: Janda Baik with luv
- June: Frasers Hill with family
- Sep: Bukit Tinggi with green tea gang
- Dec: Bukit Tinggi with luv
- Dec: Malacca, Johor & Singapore with youths
Took 5000 pics with my camera
Read 30 books
A honeymoon year at work - very relaxing.
Bid farewell to my awesome job.
Bid farewell to awesome friends: Jodie & Su Cheng.
Made new friend: awesome colleague Eunice.
Spent too much on facials.
Spent too much on books.

Goodbye 2012!

2013, I welcome you with open arms: exciting plans ahead!
I want to:
Work: Learn more, earn more, save more.
Health: 5 servings of fruit & vegetables a day.
Love: Change relationship status soon!!!

Sunday, December 16, 2012

The End & The Beginning

I'm at the end of another chapter. Though I am not leaving completely (I hope), I still feel heavy-hearted. Why did I quit? So that I can learn more and gain more experience. I'm at a point where my learning curve is not very high anymore and I want to get out of my comfort zone so I can learn more.

Looking back on all the memories, I feel so sad. But when one door closes, another opens up!

I'm looking forward to going back to Beachonhouse! Here I come!! :)

Friday, November 30, 2012

Proposal

Proposals are so overrated. People say "Successful Proposal" as if the proposal itself is what makes the gal say "Yes". A proposal is successful not because the proposal was romantic, but because of everything that happened from Day 1 and what they feel will happen in the future. If the gal does not think the guy is The One, no matter how romantic, how bombastic, how OTT the proposal was, the answer still would be NO.

Rolls eyes

Friday, November 23, 2012

Bells...


To Love is Not to Possess by James Kavanaugh
To love is not to possess,
To own or imprison,
Nor to lose one’s self in another.
Love is to join and separate,
To walk alone and together,
To find a laughing freedom
That lonely isolation does not permit.
It is finally to be able
To be who we really are
No longer clinging in childish dependency
Nor docilely living separate lives in silence,
It is to be perfectly one’s self
And perfectly joined in permanent commitment
To another–and to one’s inner self.
Love only endures when it moves like waves,
Receding and returning gently or passionately,
Or moving lovingly like the tide
In the moon’s own predictable harmony,
Because finally, despite a child’s scars
Or an adult’s deepest wounds,
They are openly free to be
Who they really are–and always secretly were,
In the very core of their being
Where true and lasting love can alone abide.

Wedding bells...